Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Cocktails and Site Seeing

I don’t think I’ve ever really appreciated the people around me, more so than I have this last week. Finding yourself in a town surrounded by foreign speakers is novelty at first, but after some exhausting conversations, it’s wonderful to talk English with some like-minded people. Having found two American au pairs in the area, we all decided to go for a drink last Thursday night.

Filiz and I turned up to a little bar in Piazza Arnaldo, where a few people were outside socialising. As we walked in, a lady was walking out with a bright orange drink; Filiz commented that it was a local speciality and that I must try it. However, she’d forgotten the name of it. So after we aroused a few locals in the bar with our terrible Italian, we ended up using hand signals, until a local guy managed to work out what we wanted and talk to the bar lady for us! With our bright orange, speciality drinks, we sat down outside absorbing the night life and observing the skill of the girls in their high heeled shoes, how on earth they walk on cobble stone streets…it beats me!

Not long after we sat down, the guy that had rescued us with ordering our drinks and a group of Italians made conversation with us, by this point Jenna had arrived; a true New Yorker with a flair for Italian language after many hours of study at college. The night slowly delved into some crazy conversations and too many drinks! A suggestion was made to try out another bar, so jumping up and feeling the alcohol, five of us set off in search of another bar. Walking up a back street, passed the Lamborghini parked outside a fine looking bar, our Italian friends introduced us to a quirky little place with white washed walls and crazy furniture. As we walked in, the guys told us to go to the toilet. Jenna, Filiz and I gave them a strange look but went in like the three musketeers. At first, it didn’t seem out of the ordinary, just like the rest of the bar, the crazy furniture had continued into the toilets. We couldn’t understand what the fuss was about and by this time, the sound of running water and the talk of toilets, made me need to go. So, closing the girls out, I locked the door and the light popped on. Except, that wasn’t the only thing it switched on; out of a speaker to the left of the toilet came the most odd assortment of what sounded like eastern European men singing in a pub. I couldn’t hold back the giggles. In turn, we each had a go in the cubicle; until the guys then opened the door and reminded us how loud we were laughing and talking. I must say, that was probably the strangest toilet I’ve ever been too, one to remember I reckon.

One or two cocktails after the crazy toilet experience, we set off in search of food. With nowhere open at 1-2am, we were given the choice to go to the house of one of the friends we had met that evening. We all considered the situation, three English speaking girls with two Italian guys… ‘There are three of us, we’ll be alright’. So off we go in a car, to an apartment on the other side of town, all this time I was worried about my bicycle and if I was sober enough to ride home without taking the wrong road. Half an hour later, the five of us were gathered around a table with a dish so full, it was seeping down the sides and all over the table. A simple dish of tomato and pasta, but at that time in the morning, it did the trick!

The next day, I was teaching present simple tense to a friend of the children, when I had a text message from my Mum claiming that they were driving to Brescia. It came as a shock to me, knowing that the day before they were staying in France. As of Friday, my parents have been in the area, enjoying the sights and not enjoying the driving! On Saturday morning, Albi (11 y.o.) showed my parents and me around Brescia, returning after an hour for lunch with the whole family, both my real parents and host parents included. Was strange having them all there together, but it came as a shock to me just how much my host parents did not know about me. I hate to say it, but I am literally ‘just another worker’ in their household, what with the housekeeper and pool cleaner etc etc. The only difference is that I can eat with them! This whole upstairs downstairs thing did not shock me; friends from South America, China and some other European countries are familiar with having a housekeeper to tend to their every need. However, it doesn’t mean I like it. To be honest, I would much rather sit there and talk nonsense Italian with the housekeeper sometimes. She has taught me a lot!

Onwards…Saturday night I was at home feeling a little glum. My parents had left to go back to their campsite in Lago d’Iseo and I had the evening to myself. I had decided to settle down with a movie for the night and after having a shower, I received a phone call from the local friend we met at the bar, ‘Come to a BBQ at my friends house!’ How could I turn down the offer? I was soon picked up and whisked out of Brescia to the surrounding countryside, where we pulled into the driveway of a very nice looking house. I wondered at the time if I was underdressed, until I looked at my friend in his swimming shorts. The crowd of Italians invited me in with open arms and I began socialising with everyone almost immediately. I recognised a few faces from the night before and stuck to them a little while as I knew they spoke very good English. There is a positive and negative with the English language; everyone here wants to practice English, and I want to practice Italian. Although, I won’t complain!

Sunday rocked around and my friend Hope was due to arrive on a train to Brescia from Bergamo. Once we’d defeated the crowds in the station, including the man that was dressed as Britney Spears from her ‘Oh Baby baby…’ era, we hopped into the car and proceeded to follow the satellite navigation in my parents little Citroën C3 to Verona! A beautiful city with far too many tourists! We spent a few hours there and I was reminded just how exhausting site seeing was! We managed to see the town square and Juliet’s balcony. However, the queue to touch Juliet’s left breast was over crowed with Asian tourists so we thought we’d come back another time.









Monday, my parents kindly came and picked me up to take me to Bergamo where we met Hope. We went with the thought that we might be able to make some arrangements and have a good look around where we will be living in September. We found the college and got happily lost around Citta Alta which I hasten to add, is absolutely beautiful. Hope wanted to have a look at one of the convents where a lot of the students live while they do their course; mainly because it’s cheap and easy. We stood outside after ringing the bell, when one of the Sister’s came down and met us at the door. In turn, we introduced ourselves and conversed mainly in broken Italian, while she took our hands and kissed our cheeks. Immediately we could tell that we would be looked after very well here. The place was beautiful and so peaceful. It was very tempting to book in there and then, but we told her we’d think about it, as we’d like to consider all possible outcomes.





The rest of the afternoon we spent site seeing around the Citta Alta of Bergamo, with beautiful churches and cobble stone streets leading to fantastic little shops, we felt at home already! After such a busy weekend, I was thankful to return to reality today. However, it got off to a bad start and suddenly all the bottled up feelings I had about being an au pair, had been released. After one conversation in the morning, my mood went from a grade 10 to a 0 in a matter of a minute. I felt like a child being told off at primary school. The thing is, I was helpless. I couldn’t start an argument. I knew I had my own side, however, what would they care. The whole day, it lingered at the back of my mind, to then understand later on that, it had been a bad day for them and I think I was caught in the crossfire.

This evening, I was treated to dinner out in a little restaurant in Brescia. However the aperitif had gone slightly to my head, so we had a good ol’ giggle over me splashing my wine everywhere. Again, it was really nice to be rescued from the hum drum of the house, and however pleasant it can be, it has its flip side. Like being with your own family, it’s lovely to get away once in a while and I’m so thankful I’ve met people to enable me to do that!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Un attimo! One moment!

How often do you think in the past? Or even the future? Over the last year, I’ve been doing exactly that. Constantly looking to the future, planning and organising what I could of the days I knew of. It started with handing in my resignation to work last year, knowing that if I had carried on in the same place for any longer, I would have missed the turning for where and what I really wanted to achieve. It has to be said, I’m proud of myself so far. Yes a little egotistic, but to be honest, we never give ourselves the gratitude we need sometimes. Everything in the last year has been down to my own decisions, with the help and direction of those closest to me.

Anyway, as I was saying, we are always looking into the future, which is consciously dictated by our past. Only now, have I slowed down enough to appreciate the moment. The last year has gone so fast, always thinking ahead. Now I am ‘ahead’ and I have no plans passed September it feels surreal yet liberating.

When I arrived in Italy, I was ignited with excitement; finally I had found myself half way around the world. However, as the days go passed with time spent trying to decode Italian conversations and helping with English language where needed, it is the flip side to my enthusiasm from the other day. As my Italian is not up to scratch, I spend most of my time sitting back, listening and observing body language and I hadn’t realised just how exhausting it is! My brain is making a constant buzzing sound, I’m surprised that I don’t have steam coming out of my ears sometimes. My eyes are watching as my ears are listening and picking words from their sentences like that of picking ripe fruit from a tree. Some conversations contain words that I haven’t got the foggiest clue what they mean and then there are some that I can follow just watching expressions and hearing the odd word like sorella (sister). What I find frustrating is that, by the time I understand what on earth is going on, the time has passed for me to make comment about it.

This frustration automatically has an effect, finally my brain stops, puts his hands on his hips and says “Right, I give up for now, I tried!” Many times this week I have got frustrated with not knowing more Italian and being able to follow a conversation. Stop. Stop. Stop. I have been here 6 days, I have never heard the language to this extent in my life, and I need to give a little credit and patience! I feel my mind wandering when sat at the table, staring into space, thinking about friends at home (both England and NZ), a few times I caught myself wishing I was somewhere else.

Now, I have realised that I do it; I am trying to teach myself not too! I made the decision to be here, and face it; I am so privileged to have this experience! This evening, I was at dinner with my family at their friends’ house and as my mind started wandering, this voice boomed into my head “Hey, oy! You! Pay attention, be here, right here, right now. You’re in a stunning house, sitting with lovely people, eating fantastic food and listening to a beautiful language! One day, you will look back on this! Take it in while you can!”

I lasted the best part of an hour before my mind was so exhausted. Present moment awareness is a difficult thing to achieve but this could be the best time and place to discipline my mind! I best start in small doses to avoid the steam out of my ears…

Friday, June 17, 2011

A foreigner, An aupair.

The time has come for me to enjoy the sights, smells and tastes of Italy. Upon my arrival in Bergamo airport, I was met by my host mum, glamorously dressed for work. I was immediately taken to the coffee bar, where she drank her coffee like a shot of tequila! And so, the culture cruise began, sailing through, observing the oceans of Italian traits and lifestyle.

The family I am with are lovely. With two children (who I've altered the names of) Albi (11) and Angie (14) who, I would just like to add, is taller than me. Alex, my host mum reminds me of my old boss from the ice cream café in New Zealand. A true business woman who has a lovely fashion-conscious flare!

On the first day here, Angie took me to town to meet her friends and show me the shops. Upon arriving back to the house, Albi turned me around and walked me straight back out the door. He was to show me the sites of the town, including Tomba del Cane… tomb of the dog, the duomo… or cathedral for us… his school and some of the many squares, including piazza tebaldo. After getting up at 4.30am to catch my flight (which I hasten to add, I almost did not catch), I was shattered!

It is still very new, my Italian lessons seems to have gone down the drain. I was put on the spot at a café with Angie on Monday, when the waiter wanted to take our order, I forgot everything and looked at her helplessly. The next day, Albi ordered the drinks in a café. So far, I’ve not had a lot of practice! But with time, I will gain the confidence to go out on my own and see how far I can get with “Non parlo italiano!”.

Something I have come to notice quite early on in my stay is that the teenage girls here are very mature, in looks and in actions. It’s normal to see them sat smoking in cafes with a coffee served out in front of them. The boys, even for the same age, are smaller and still childish. It must be very hard to fit them into age categories judging by looks!



On Tuesday, Albi took me to the castle. It was spectacular to see Brescia from higher up. The castle was also amazing! Apart from the site seeing and the occasion glance around shops, the life of an au pair is slightly obscure, at first there is no routine. Tomorrow, I will claim some routine and see what I can get out of a day.



P.S. The food is… A* 

Monday, June 13, 2011

Italia Awaits...New Chapter!

Hellos and goodbyes are quite a common everyday concept. As a remedy to tears and tantrums, my brothers technique with my nephew makes me giggle; we went to the park the other day and when it came to leaving, Paul insisted that Ethan was to say goodbye to the swings, goodbye to the slide, and goodbye to the park. Seems crazy, but it gives my nephew the concept of acceptance and allowance to let it go for the time being.

I’ve been back in England since the end of April, after a shock to the system leaving New Zealand, I didn’t welcome the opportunities in England with open arms. Looking back I think I subconsciously shut myself off. I was still wounded from leaving NZ and I was scared to open up again in fear of feeling exactly the same when the time came to leave for Italy. There are many things my mind has taken on board since being back, one thing in particular is that I could never move back to England. I have been spoilt by the beauty and laid back style of NZ for so long; I am not prepared to give it up!

In the past, I had found it easy to slot back into life when I came back to England. I met up with my old friends and everything clicked. This time, everything is different. The only thing that could have changed is…me? Since my last visit back, I started teaching and set up a life, gave it all up and journeyed across the world to follow a passion for Montessori. Ignited by friends, co-teachers and the children that I worked with, I realised that New Zealand and England are not the ‘be all and end all’. Italy is out of my comfort zone, but I think for the level adventure I want, it sounds ideal!

It’s so hard to say goodbye to things you are accustomed to, until your mind is diverted and lead by something more overruling. Our minds need diversion from certain situations, otherwise we get so engrossed in one concept without balancing it out and dealing with other things. I can’t remember the phrase exactly, but something like, ‘Sometimes we stare so long at the door that has just closed that we don’t see another one open’.

Last night I was dwelling on the goodbyes I had been saying within the last week, I was quite tearful and I couldn’t quite work out why! I’d said goodbye to all those people in the past and a few months or years later, greeted by a cheerful hello. That’s just how it goes! I think it was a mixture of things last night, I was looking at the closed door while standing in an empty corridor with only one other door to open. This morning, I opened that door! The next chapter has begun.

It begins with a night spent in a really…rough…hotel. It’s a little more like a hostel, but to be honest, I’m just thankful of having my own room with a bed and my independence back in full swing. So I sit here on my creaky single bed with well-worn bed sheets, the noise of my typing dulled out by the television in the next room (which coincidently is number 13), people walking passed my room allowing each door to slam behind them; this is the life. Back to the real deal, adventure!

There are many things I am fearful of, but mainly it’s just the unknown. The language, people, possibilities that may arise, anything could happen! I joked with my friend Hope (who is already au-pairing in Italy and shall meet in September to study together), that we’ll end up with 70 year old men who own vineyards and somehow become rich and drunk spinsters living it up in Italy! Funny what crosses your mind! Somehow, I don’t think that’ll be the case but it comforted us that that would be the worst case scenario!

I’ve said my goodbyes to England, I’m ready to say my hellos to Italy. And so, my Italian adventures begin…

Monday, June 6, 2011

Adventure- Quick Update

Over a month now, I have been travelling the length and breadth of the UK visiting family, friends and most of the time pulling off a tourist image! I’ve found it very hard over the last month to settle with the fact that my time here was a stopover. To be honest, I felt stuck between two chapters in my life, with no real relation (almost like a whole separate book to my life!). However, I learnt to live it large on the time I had here.

What I have really enjoyed over the last month was visiting friends in their own homes, I guess at our age, it’s something to be renting or owning your own pad, so it was great to see how each of my friends had personalised their homes. From Laura and Will’s vegetable garden with potatoes growing out their ears, to the girls at Harriet Street and their garden that we decorated with melting candles that cascaded over the used wine bottles. It’s like slipping into their life for a few days and seeing what it’s all about. My adult years, I spent in New Zealand, and they were quite different due to the circumstances. I never lived in university accommodation with flatmates like a lot of my English friends; instead I lived in random cheap rooms around the city or drove for an hour into university every day from my parents place. The party atmosphere in the student district of Cardiff was astonishing, you could hear and see each house getting geared up for a night out after the stress of the exam period. That particular part of student life, I missed. However, with the thanks of my best mate, who took me out in Cardiff, I feel like I’ve experienced what I had been missing, and to be honest, I don’t think I could have done it 24/7 for four years. One week, in their shoes was enough for me to enjoy, but also I think, my life has been moulded so differently over the last few years. I’ve adapted to the kiwi style of living, and due to the fact that I spent some vital growing years there, it’s what I see as normal now.

It has to be said, I love coming back to England and seeing everyone. I was pondering on the thought the other day, and I came to the conclusion that it’s almost like being in a time machine. For the reasons above, I have grown and adapted differently, so when I meet friends and go to the pub; it’s almost like going back in time. The pub atmosphere here is so different to NZ; it takes me back to when my parents used to take us out to a pub at the weekends for a meal, or when a number of us started going to the local because we got away with being underage. It doesn’t feel normal; it feels like a blast from the past. It’s extraordinary!

Without so much delving into my thoughts, I have had a good time here in the UK. I have had my time of frustrations (and possibly the odd tantrum) due to a lack of independence on the transportation front plus moving from place to place is not always easy, it’s a time when I envy snails that carry their home with them. Next time I return I may consider renting somewhere as a base, so I don’t have to lug my suitcase everywhere!

In a week, I depart for Italy. I land in Bergamo, get picked up by my host family and driven back to Brescia. Until the end of August, I will be looking after two children and teaching them English at their home in Brescia and in Sardinia at their holiday home. Lucky girl you may say! Well, I am scared! But it’ll be the chance of a lifetime to delve into the Italian culture. I hope to come out fluent in Italian and speaking with my hands (even more). More updates will come…for now…ciao!